Original poster here. I've posted occasionally on this site about technical and equipment issues and have always found the most helpful and knowledgeable people about the RV world here. Now, when I post something in the realm of life and the ways of the human heart, ya'll again wowed me with your thoughtfulness! Thank you everybody for the perspectives and sharing your own experiences with losing your partner. Regarding my upcoming road trip to the SW, someone mentioned "finding yourself", indeed!, my identity as a spouse/partner no longer seems relevant. I've always been an intrepid person, prided myself on not being fearful. Finally found something that scares me; Alone-ness. Perhaps finding myself will at least partially involve embracing solitude and befriending it. That said, I'm 64 and have some good years in front of me and intend on living them to the fullest. I want to, and plan to love again. The challenge is living in the present. Always, right?