Roy, I don't know you, I don't know your story, and I did not sleep in a holiday inn express last night, but...
I am married to my soulmate. We don't agree on much, but we know how to compromise, and we know we belong together. If I lost her I would be just plain lost, wandering aimlessly in the abyss.
But 5 years is a long long time my friend. Get out there. Move. Do something. fire up that old RV, do what you need to do to make her safe and reliable, and get out there and see stuff.
Your DW (God rest her soul) would prefer it for you.