Turn for the worse

As you know, Buddy Blue was diagnosed with metastatic CA in Sept. We kept him comfortable with pain meds and promised if it got worse, we would end his suffering.

Suddenly, his rt jowl thickened even worse than before and he was drooling thick mucus and had it in his eyes as well. He couldn't drink or eat without difficulty.

After discussion with the vet, we decided we could no longer be selfish. We had to let him go. It was so hard. I cannot believe that I could cry so much. DH is devastated. To make it easier on him, I went alone. They were inseparable.

The vet was so compassionate and didn't hurry me. She sat on the floor with me for an hour while I held him and sobbed. I told her funny stories about his life and am still tearing up as I write this.

He was a darling who was our best friend. He's at peace now, but I miss him so. Duncan still wanders the house looking for him and checks the yard to see if he's returned. It's heartbreaking. He's never been alone...ever. Any suggestions?

Thanks for listening to me. I know you all understand how I feel. Give your babies a hug and kiss in memory of Buddy Blue, the best friend ever.

Here is a picture when he was 2 in Germany.