My adult daughter suffers from PTSD and anxiety from a severe car accident.
I'm sorry you have to live with something that so many people don't understand.
my only question, because you worry about it happening before you go, do you think that triggers a greater possibility of it happening? I know my daughter completely obsesses with things that it triggers a horrible anxiety attack. She is trying to learn not to obsess but it definitely is easier said then done.
I hope you can find answers to help!!!!