I am a member of the club, wife died two years ago. All we can do is, decide not to die on the same day our wife did. Solider on, one foot in front of the other. it will get better. We must live on, it is what they would want
Working was a great thing for me, kept me occupied. Otherwise would probably gone home and drank myself to death.
Not gonna lie, the road ahead is pretty tough for months, but have faith, the grief will lessen, you will become you again, you will live again and if you desire you will find another to love.
Keep the faith