Thankyou to all of you posting. This has really helped to be able to tell you my fears. To be able to say to the people I fear, I am scared. It has also helped by the fact that it could have been any one of you that I might have been afraid of and you did not judge me or take it personally. It is an awful feeling to see such wonderful families enjoying themselves in a beautiful country, looking relaxed and at peace when I am watching everywhere else, questioning. I thankyou again for the words that are comforting and thankyou for inviting me to your country.